sometimes i think i cant handle myselff.
and i need to rely on someone.
someone who is strong enough to keep me strongg.
this person is GOD.

hmms feel kinda beatenn.
everyone thinks im gonna get retained.
even gloria was tellingg me that she thinks i have a really high chance of retainingg.
she was jus beingg frank.
wahhh gloria is a good fren and i thank her for beingg frank mans.
she thinks im scared but i do nothingg.
jiayan kept tellingg me not to allow myself to get retaineddd.
'cos it'll be quite sadd if i cant get promoted with the class.
i know all that.
last nite zes called.
she tried to ask me to buck up and jus have no life for the next two weeks.
seriously i am willingg to have no life for the next two weeks.
really i am.
but the thingg is i can change that variable factor in the short runn.
but i cant change the fixed factorr.
and the fixed factorr is this brain of minee.
i cant change it.can i??
i jus wanna make my snail brain a tortoise brainn.
that will be good enoughhh.
and i wanna get promoted so badd!!
but then again.
i jus need help right noww.
and it seems like no one can help me other than myselff.
and i think im too slow to help myselff.
eh u know what.i tried to studyyy todayy.
really triiied.
but other than havingg math tuition.
i only read two pgs of geog.
hmms how pathetic is thattt.
thats what ive done for the past 3 hours.
guess thats jus mee.
unproductive person.

but i guess.
what ive told myself is.
im gonna try my BEST for the remainingg two weeks.
really i am.
but the rest im jus gonna leave it all to GOD 'cos i think i cant handle it.
think i hafta put negative thots out of my headd.
:)

on to more happy thots.
yesterday was darn hilarious duringg econs tuition.
i think i embarrassed myselfff like maddddd.
i almost fell of my chairr so i gavee a loud screamm.
and realized that practically the whole class was staringg at me.
with giggles aroundd.
hmms im sucha embarrassingg personn.

goingg for maf laterr.
im so thankful cos my mom is gonna send me to sch.
wheeeeeeeeeeee!!
:)