ahhhhhhhhhs!!
im so disgusted with myself for beingg so unproductive all the timee!!
so now im gonna attempt to change this sickeningg trenddd.
ARGH!!
last nite i decided not to sleep early.
so i drank a cup of coffee.
then i read geog from like eleven to like two.
many times i wanted to giveee up and go to beddd.
but the thingg is i was so tiiired but i couldnt sleeeeep.
im not sure if its cos i was worried or it was cause of the coffee.
so i couldnt sleeeeep.
i was so worried.
was lyingg on my bedd and thinkingg abt the promos.its like three days laterrr.
then i would get up cos i cant sleep.
and ill try to read my geogg again.
so that carried on from like twelve plus to twooooo.
i wanted to rest cos i was unproductive and no pt forcingg myself to continue rightt.
must as well have a good rest and wake up to a better day.
think i only read abt five pgs of geog or sth la.
so i was very irritated and disgusted with my unproductivity.
and then i was abt to cry la.
then my mom came in.
then i jus told her.
"mom be prepared."
then i was tellingg her i read and read i still dont understand whats happeningg.
and i still have stacks i haven touchedd.
its like crampingg all the stuff into my headd when i cant get anythingg in.
i dont know why.
it sounded funny at that point of timee.
so the both of us laughed.
its jus quite weird that a mom would laugh with her daughter over such stuff.
and she saidd."dont say that now and jus try your BEST."
i know my mom would support me whatever the outcome is.
she wouldnt be pressurizing mee.
so im jus gonna try to be productive for the next few days.
i so do not wanna let her downn.
i so do not wanna let everyone down.
and i so wanna promote with 3! and 04s64.
im so disgusted with myself and all the stacks of geog notes!!
but im not gonna give up yet.
i think im really more worried abt this whole promos thingg then o's.
thats like so-sooooooo weiiird.
yups so i gave xx a msg last nitee at like twelve pluss.
'cos i couldnt sleeeeep.
i told her we should jus persevere for the next weeek.
so that at the end we'll know that we've foughtt.
hmms yarrr.
i really hope the both of us would be able to promote togetherr.
wouldnt it be nicee??
yar that will be so nicee!!
will keep prayingg for the both of us

since these few days at home have been like super unproductivee.
ive decided to change my studyingg environment todayy.
yarr.
im gonna study at gardens todayy.
and joyce is comingg to join me.
she doesnt have to go sch too.
im not sure abt yolk but i msged her.
and maybe ask mel too.
thats if they have no sch too.
yups that will be good.
kill two birds with one stonee.
seeingg them would calm my fears even if its jus a slight bitt.
and also perhaps i would be more productivee.

before i leave my house today.
im gonna pray that for today i wouldnt be unproductive.
today shall be an exception right??
yar im sure it would.
:)