hmms yesterday was a weirrd day.
and a longg day too.
reached sch at like 8.
dad gave me a lift to sch.
so i handed up my work.
and he drove me to town.
great dad!!
hahas so i reached town at like eightfourtyfive or sth.
super earlyy.
was goingg to meet joyce.xin.des and lydia at ten.
so i lingered around town awhilee alonee.
i was like tellingg xin to hurry comeee.
cos look like no fren like thatt!!
hahas i went to starbucks to get caramel coffee jellyy.
i love that drinkk!!
then i jus stayed at starbucks for awhilee.
talked on the phonee awhilee.
then decided to walk around abitt when it was gonna be abt tenn.
walked around quite awhilee.
'cos they were all lateee.
hahas desmond was the earliest though he was latee too.
hmms after that all of us went to study.
were supposed to studyy.
but it was darn unproductivee.
read like i think one pg of econs or sth.
joyce and i kept convincingg them to watch cinderella storyy.
xin.des and lydia were quite reluctant.
but they agreed in the end.
hahas so we watchedd.
hmms was quite an okayy showw.
at the start i thot austin ames wasnt good lookingg at all.
but after that i thot he was quite cutee.
hahas but the mean girls guy is still cuterr!!
i think that mean girls guyy is darn cutee!!
anw the show was perhaps a lil draggy at the startt.
but the endingg was quitee nice i guess.
was quitee touchingg.
kinda tearedd which was quite retarded.
hahas there were two parts which were quite sadd.
one part is the part when they humiliated hilary duff on stagee.
and i think the saddest part was when she went to confront that austin ames guy before his match.
there was this phrase she said which was darn sadd.
"waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought useless and disappointing"
hahas i thot that was darn sadd.
okayy anw.like any typical showw.
there was a happy endingg.which was good
hmms so after that the five of us went to mc cafe at lido.
i did a super short essay outline which was my tuition hw.
hahas thats all i did for yesterday i guess.
then i left to meet the 3!
hahas they met earlier to buy the present for kaixian.
but i came rather lateee.
so after that we walked to heeren.
we took neos.
hahas then we took a bus to ps to meet the rest of the class at cartel.
hmms the girls.meaningg 3! kept takingg photos.
hahas before everyone else camee.
jeff was our photographer for the dayy.
hahas.after that the class had dinner togetherr.
xx and i ordered two dishes and we shared bothh.
hahas whats neww.
anw after dinnerr.we had the cakee!!
was really deliciouss mans!!
hahas yummyyyyyyyy!!
then after that the class was decidingg what to do and where to go.
thot of bowlingg and playingg pooL.
but decided to jus go to the arcade since it was rather nearr and convenient.
haven really been much to arcades.
hmms played air hockeyy.
think thats the highlight.
hahas shiyun and i versus jiayan and xiaoxuan.
stnicks versus nanyang.
hahas we played four timees.
stnicks won twicee.nanyangg won twicee.
yayys!!
we were makingg alot of noisee.
we were screamingg and shoutingg like madd.
like some mad womenn.
but it was so funn!!
so after that i left to rush homee.
i think it was like ten or sth.
spent like more than half of my day in townn.
rushed homee.
'cos was supposed to meet joyce and the rest to go over to yuchings house to stayoverrr.
xin couldnt go.
so actually it was jus joyce.me.des and ron goingg overr.
but it turned out kinda disastrous last nitee.
cos joyce couldnt go outt.
as in her mom didnt alloww.
so i went over to her housee.
my mom fetched me theree.
ilove my momm!!
hahas she is a great mom and she rocks!!
cos joyce wanted to tell her mom that she was goingg over to my housee.
so i told my mom to lieee.
that if her mom were to call my house.
jus say that we went our for awhile to have supper.
my mom was like.huh ask me to lie to her mom??
then i was like plss!!
then she was likee okayy kinda thingg.
wahhh!!
me goingg to joyce's house was a plan to make her mom feel paiseh
but that didnt work.
uh so i was at joyce's house till like twelve i thinkk.
cant remember what timee.
anw her mom didnt allow her to leave the housee after tt.
'cos she said it was too late alr.
actually her mom kinda didnt really mind tt much.guess it was her sis.
so after that we asked yuchingg and des to go to the busstop near her housee.
'cos we thot we could hang around downstairrs.
but her sis didnt allow her to go downstairrs too.
we thot of a plan to sneak outt.
but we were discoveredd.
uh we hid joyce's bag in my bagg.
and her sis found out that her bagg was missingg.
wah smart sis.
so her sis asked us where we were goingg.
tried to cover up.
she said she was jus walkingg me down to the gate downstairs.
cos i wanted to go homee.
her sis said she would fetch me homee.
uh so we couldnt carry out our plann.
hmms but des and yuchingg were alr at the busstop.
so i told her sis to drop me somewheree.
i said like i could walk home from there kinda thingg.
so i went to the busstop.
i told them that joyce couldnt comee and was jus telling them the whole longg story im sayingg noww.
so anw.a min after i arrived at the busstop.
ron arrived too.
hmms i immediately decided in my mind to go homee.
'cos like i didnt like the feelingg of beingg the only girl.
like kinda extra kinda thingg.
and i jus didnt wanna be the only girL.
was feelingg saddd.
so i jus told them i would go homee after havingg prata with themm.
was walkingg like less than halfwayy.
i jus feltt darn sadd la.
didnt even feel like eatingg.
i have no idea whyy.
and the point is i really didnt wanna be the only girL there.
and i really wished joyce could be there too.
so i jus saidd.
uh i think i wanna go homee after meetingg them for like only ten mins or so.
they wanted to walk me back initially.
but i told them i would be alright and stuff.
jus felt like beingg alonee.
so i jus walked homee.
on my way homee.
i was jus takingg a stroll homee.
and im glad i took that stroll homee.
thot abt alot of stuff that has been goingg on.
and there was sth i realized.
hmms but thats jus not that impt.
anw.the impt point is i felt even sadder.
'cos i realized sth.
GOD was tryingg to speak to me earlier.
but i jus ignored.
and unbelievers might think what im sayingg doesnt really make sense.
but i believe and know that its like really truee kinda thingg.
before i met joyce to go to her housee.i was at the busstop waitingg for herr.
i was thinkingg in the bible it says that we should not disobey our parents.
i was thinking.i wasnt disobeyingg my parents.
'cos my mom allowed me.my dad allowed me.and i wasnt disobeyingg them.
but i was questioning if it was right of me to help my fren to disobey her parents.
i was thinkingg like is this what GOD would want me to do??
to like encourage my fren to go against her parents.
and i swept that thot away quickly and said to myself "its jus once"
so when i was walkingg homee.
i jus felt that
GOD was actually tryingg to speak to me.
but i jus chose not to listenn.
i chose to disobeyy.
i was feelingg super sad over this matter.
hmms during the stroll home i also remembered sth.
everynite i would read a chpt of the purpose driven lifee.
and i never ever forgot.
but last nite i actually forgot abt it.
i didnt read before leavingg my house to joyce's placee.
but somehow GOD wants me to read it.
we couldnt stayover in the end.
it was like GOD's plan for me to remember and go home to read it.
was jus feelingg really rotten and all.
i know joyce was blamingg herself cos she kept apologizingg.
but i was blamingg myself for not listeningg to GOD.
but i told her it was no ones fault.
as in she didnt want all tt to happen too.
so i was jus sad the wholee nite mainly cos i felt like i should have listened.
hmms got home i think at like one plus or sth after the long stroll home.
cant exactly remember what timee.
i read the chpt for the day.
and was still feelingg rotten.
joyce called.
and we started talkingg.
we talked abt quite alot of stuff.
i told her abt how i disobeyed GOD.
how i had the thot of actually not listeningg to him and everythingg.
we talked abt the stuff that have been troublingg us and everythingg.
was quite a good talk i guess.
not the usual nonsense.
but we were listeningg to each other pouringg out our troubles.
yups

JOYCE : it isnt your faultt.and jus wanna let u know that u are really a fren i really cherish so much.one of the GREATEST frens in my lifee.we have gone through so muchh.and im so gladd we have always survived it all.yups ill be here to listen whenever u need me.jus the same way uve been there for me!! :) thanks.iloveyouu!!

so i think we talked for like an hour or so.
and we decided to go to bed.
i couldnt exactly sleep that niteee though it was alr two.
it was like within yesterday so much happened.
everythingg started out so wonderful.
so happy and all.
till the time when things didnt turn out the way i wanted.
and i knoww that this is what GOD wants for me.
and i shall learn from this to listen harder to GOD.
and not to disobey what he wants of me.
and i should do what he wants me to do and not what i wanna do.
hmms i dont knoww why.
that matter got me so upsett.
that even though ive alr talked to joyce abt it.
i jus couldnt help thinkingg abt it.
i cried for a good whole ten mins after the phone call.
my dogs were theree to kinda comfort me kinda thingg.
my bulldog nike kept staringg at mee and he kept tapping me with his paws.my golden retriever fila was jus sittingg there beside me quietly.
went upstairs after tt.
was lyingg on my bed.
reflected a lil moree.
and cried till i fell asleep.
woke up at like one plus.
was darnn tiiiired.
ive been at the com ever since.
slept for like close to twelve hours.
hahas think i shall go for evening mass later.
jus wanna give more of my time to GOD.
jus wanna spend more quiet time to listen to what he has to say to me.
yups.and im gonna meet xin and joyce for dinner later at gardenns after mass.
exciiiited.
jus had my lunchh.
hmms a really long entryy.
i think some ppl would have jus given up readingg this long storyy.
yup but the purpose of putting this down in words would be to serve as a reminder and lesson to mee.
hahas :)
dont think ill be doingg anw work todayy.
think maybe will try to start workingg tmr.
haven done any work from the start of the hols till now.
hmms but think i jus need some time off today.
:)