Tuesday, December 04, 2007

cranberries, yummmmm....

"It's a curious fact. The firmer and fresher the cranberry, the higher it bounces. That's why cranberries undergo the "bounce test". If you drop cranberries onto wooden boards, the best berries bounce into the air. We specially select cranberries to accompany our other fine ingredients. Buttery-tasting almond and whole grain granola clusters. Cranberry Almond Crunch - now with even more almonds and clusters. Just one of our Post Selects cereals. Each with a story of its own."
Part of the Post Selects Collection

when i was havingg breakfast just now.
i realized that though ive always been eating cereal and this is my millionth time eating cranberry almond crunch.
i never did stop to notice what was on the box, etc.
what mattered more was always what was inside.
today i took time to read what was outside.
and i realized that.
i have to warn you.
cranberry almond crunch is super delicious.
reallyy.
but....
the cranberries do not bounce!!
so, in case you bought it thinking that the cranberries they selected do bounce, be warned 'cos i just ran a trial test and they do not!!
yea but if you plan to buy it whether the cranberries bounce or not.
im tellingg you its real yummyyyyyyyyyyyy.
and i still intend to buy it even though i know they do not bounce.
im seriously questioningg the need for this storyyy on the back of the box.

Monday, November 19, 2007

i miss youuu... so much.

i miss youu.
so much.
i wish you knew.
but somehow i guess you'll never knoww.
you've just been gone for a week.
but life seems so differenttt.
i wish you were here.
i could always rant on and on about all the stuff thats goingg on and you'll always patiently listen without even commenting much.
but it was always nice just knowingg you were always there to listen.
i wish you were aroundd.
'cos you always made things right.
you knew so much abt me.
all the things i liked.
all the things i disliked.
all my weirdest habits, you knew them all.
you called a few days back.
it was so nice hearingg your voice for just about four and a half mins before the line got cut off.
you told me you want to come back but you wont be able to.
my heart sank.
last week when we cried and hugged before you left.
there was this hope inside of me.
that prevented much more tears.
this hope that ill get to seeya again.
this hope seems to grow more distant noww.
but i just reallyy...
miss youuuu.
thanks for everythinggg.
hugggg.

Friday, November 16, 2007

your grace is sufficient...

things have changed so much.
this entire week starting from last wed has been eventful.
totallyy...
like a rollercoaster ridee.
in terms of events that have taken place, emotional aspect, etc.
theres so much to say...
GOD has been so good to me.
he has always been walkingg so close to me.
i always felt it.
to the point i unknowingly took for granted the fact that he'll always be there.
to those who do not believe in GOD.
i tell youu.
GOD is real and he is so good!!
pls speak more to me about it if you want to find out more.
i will be more than willingg to share with you how GOD loves us.
yupp.
somethin happened.
mixed feelings abt it.
its definitely more good than bad.
cos i was like so exciiited abt it and stuff.
its unbelievable reallyyy.
yet i have mixed feelins cos ill be takingg my own path from here.
reallyy...
im kinda scared cos i know how dependant i am on ppl who are close to me.
i am dependant on everythin and everyonee in this world.
but i know that this is GODs plan for me or this unbelievable and amazingg thing that just happened would not have happened!!
oh myyyyyyy!!
theres so much i worry about.
but i no longerr worry cos he is gonna be there walkingg with me.
as much as it'll seem like im takingg my own path.
i will not be.
cos he will be right here by my sidee!!
i knoww...
some people will think, its luck again.
shes luckyy.
but then i think to myself.
and once again,
im convinced.
it isnt luck.
its GODs grace and everythin comes from GOD.
i thank you LORD.
you are so good.
help me to love you more and more and moreeee each day.
help me to be more adequate and less imperfect for you.
help me to always stayy close.
i wanna love youuuuuuuuuuuuu all the time.
i wanna feel your presence all the timeeeeeee.
i can never thank you enough.
but...
THANK YOU!!
you are simply the BEST.
<3

Monday, November 12, 2007

holdin' your hand, i won't fearr tomorrowwwwwww

Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
Try to dull an inner scream
But you . . . saw me through . . .

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
You take my hand to guide me home and now I'm in love

You took my heart away
When my whole world was grey
You gave me everything and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life . . .

Living in a world so cold
You were there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start
And now . . . I 'm in love

You took my heart away <3
When my whole world was grey :(
You gave me everything and a little bit more :)
And when it's cold at night :(
And you sleep by my side :)
You become the meaning of my life . . . :))))))))))))

Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow :DDDDDDDDDDDD
Here where we stand
We'll never be alone :)

You took my heart away
When my whole world was grey
You gave me everything and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life . . .
You become the meaning of my life . . .
You become the meaning
You become the meaning of my life . . .

i thank you for everythinnn.
my first lovee.
my true loveeeee.
my greatest loveeeee.
<3
iloveyou.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

nah, she doesnt belongg

bad week.
failed income tax quiz 3.
failed income tax mid term.
many proj meetings and had presentations today.
boringg day man.
for the times ive been a liability to the ppl around me, im really sorry.
'cos i never meant to be.
i just wished this world was a lil less judgemental.
it just makes me feel even more like i wanna change.
to make a real great effort not to judge anymoree.
it can be kinda disgustingg at times??
yea and so i think im disgusted with myself at times.
stop tellingg me what i am and what i am not.
i know what i am.
and nobody really knows me.
sch work is causingg me sucha great headache.
yea friends and ppl around are nice.understanding and all.
its just me.
i dont understand a single thingg i learn.
i feel dumb in this sch.its a wonder how i got into smu man.
yuck and i keep procrastinating i knoww.
i dont wanna work hard.
i keep believing that i dont wanna get caught up.
i dont wanna be just another smuggerr.
but truth is i feel silly most days??
oh well.
doesnt really matter.
and why is it that as we grow olderr.
the ppl closest to our hearts start leavingg one by one.
ive always wanted to be there for my close ones.
to be there for those who need me.
but yet.
the greatest irony.
is that.
when im down during times like that.
i dont ever turn to anyonee.
i prefer beingg alone.
no.
im not a lonerr.
i just need some alone time.
to discover what i am behind the smiles.
as i grow olderr, i get more convinced that...
i just dont belongg.
and duringg times like this.
the only one i wanna turn to is youu.
and bcos you know that.
pls help me to help myself to stop myself from stoppingg myself to get closerr and surrenderr.
cos you give me strength when im weak.
and to those who botherr.
nah im not depressed.
just emo-ingg and tiired of how things work hereee.
yea and everyone will be thinkingg.
EARTH TO EILEEN.
yea i ought to face up to reality.
but i cant help it.
i wanna runaway.
to a place where grades dont matter, where ppl love each other unconditionally, where ppl dont judge.
that place is my ultimate goal.
so pls.
help me to work towards it.
i love youu.
more than ever noww.

Saturday, November 03, 2007

spare me

no thanks.
i do not wish to be consumed.

Monday, October 29, 2007

i can never thank you enough <3

im twenty noww.
hmms.being twenty now, it doesnt feel much different than when i was nineteen just a few days back.
yupp.
anyway just wanna thank the ppl who made the past few days beautiful.
thanks SER for your royce chocs, the red heart purse, and the letter u wrote, its really really sweeeeeeet babe.

thanks COT and YOLK for celebratingg with me at 12am at timbreee after asoc day. haha. thanks for the nice bracelet and esp nic. thanks for the card. its reallyy beautiful and the letter you wrote reallyy touched my hearttt. thanks yolk for makingg a necklace for mee!! thanks for the cakee COT and yolkk (((:

thanks EELI.MEL.YOLK.XIUS.SHUS.WEIREN for surprisingg me at 7 am in the morningg. XIUS thanks for droppingg by just to give me a card when you had to rush off. thanks EELI.MEL.WEIREN for the breakfast you preparedddd [the hotcakes "cake", sausages, scramble eggs, cereal]. and thanks SHUS for specially rushingg to my house after your night cyclingg even though you were so tiiired. thanks YOLK for just beingg there again. it was nice seeingg you girls and just talkingg and stuff for a few hours.thanks JIES for callingg me to wish me even though you couldnt make it.

thanks YOLK for spendingg the whole day with me, shoppingg and stuff. your company was great, you know that rightt?? thanks for the tank topp. heeeee and thanks to my family for havingg dinner with me at imperial treasure. thanks YOLK for joiningg us too. thanks BRO for buyingg the carrot cake from cedele just 'cos i said i wanted it even though you didnt like it. thanks DAD for just rushingg back from china just to celebrate. thanks for the wonderful dinnerrrrr. thanks CAND for callingg me from nottingham just to wish me happy birthdayy. woah im touched.thanks SHUN for poppingg by halfwayy duringg dinner to pass me the card and a color pencil. the card was niceee. (((:

thanks JOYCE for attemptingg to surprise me at 11.50 sth, during the last few hours of my bday. haha sorry for spoilingg your surprise by comingg out of the house. thanks for the donuts, the reese cereal, the precious moments photoframe with pictures of us and the cardddd. it means alot to mee. thanks babe. for the night talk we haddd. and how we walked over to look for YOLK and how we talked till maybe three before headingg back to my homee. you girls are the love of my lifee <3

thanks XIN.JOYCE.RON.YUCHING.MARK for celebratingg my bday with me at akashi at paragonn!! heeeee i likee.wheeee jap food rocks. but anyway you guys rock moree!! yupp thanks for the wonderful companyy. the time we spent at toysarus and the present i recieved from all of you [ralph lauren perfume - vaporisateur]. it spells natural (((: niceeeeee.thanks for the SUPER yummyyy and rich choc cake from canele. its SUPER niceeee (((: thanksss.

thanks WEIREN for the wonderful dinnerr at dempsey. the wonderful company and your present and card. appreciate it. you've been reallyy special in my life. thanksss for thatt :DDD

thanks for the many many ppl who wished me either on msn, sms, facebook, etc. theres far too many for me to name here so i wont be namingg. but really. thanks for at least rememberingg. or if facebook, etc reminded youu, thanks for at least makingg an effort to wishhh mee!! hahaaa

and last but not least, a short prayerr:
thank you GOD. for makingg me who i am. for blessingg me with sucha wonderful life. with my wonderful grandma.dad.mom.bro.maid.and dog rex.
thanks for blessingg me with the most wonderful friends esp my dearest girls who have weathered thru everythingg with me since sec sch. thanks for watchingg me groww and thanks for helpingg me to groww.
thanks for blessingg me with every single thinggggg. for givingg me sucha comfortable life and makingg me a happyy girl.
help me to onlyy grow to be a better child of yours. i wanna be a woman of GOD.
help me to LOVE unconditionally and to bringg joy to the ppl around me duringg this short journey in life which will prepare me for a more wonderful life spent with you.
LORD i know im not worthy to recieve you, but only say the word and i shall be healed.
i love you GOD.
i wanna love you more and more each day.
help me not to allow the material things in this world [sch.work.etc] to stress me out so that ill not remember to appreciate the simplest things in lifee.
i wanna always view life in the most positive mannerr.
remind me that you are always here with mee and theres nothin' i should fear.
i surrender my whole life to you and i ask of you to always be in control.
you always know whats BEST for me and i thank youu.
draw me closer and closerr to you LORD and help me to get rid of all the obstacles that are preventingg me from goingg into a closerr walk with you.
thank you for everythingg. and i wished for all the ppl around me who are closest to my heart to be healthy and happyy. i know that wishes do not come true. they only come true when you make them. and so i come to you with the most sincere heart. LORD pls bless my family, my friends and all those who matter to me. bless those who do not matter to me but who matter to those who matter to me as well. in JESUS most precious name i pray, AMEN.