wahh like finally all's over.
hmms its jus rather weird.
im not feelingg what i should be feelingg.
after the math paper.
glor and i went to town.
we didnt exactly do much.
like jus walked aroundd.had lunch and stuff.
jr came to meet glor.
didnt know he was comingg to meet her too.
oooohs i was sorta spoilingg their rendezvous.
and the whole day i was jus havingg alot runningg thru my mindd.
then after that glor was goingg back to stnicks.
but i choked on some chocolate jelly thingg.
i was eatingg
and trying to talk at the same timee.
suddenly the chocolate jelly thingg went into my windpipe or sth.
wahhh nearly diedd.
wanted to go back to stnicks with glor at first.
but i was feelingg terribleee.
so decided to return homee.
on my way home i was sufferingg.
hahas felt acute pain due to the chocolate thingg.
it was so painful.my tears jus came outt.
ahhhs!!
when i came home.was so painful.
'cos i couldnt get the chocolate thingg even though i kept blowingg my nose and stuff.
even after like close to two hours.
hahas my grandma was so worried she wanted to bringg me to see the doctorr.
but after awhilee.
i jus felt better.after drinkingg lots of waterr and stuff.
hahas maybe the chocolate thingg melted or sth.
oooohs painful experience.OUCH.
anw i was jus feelingg quite sadd.
math was my only hopee kinda thingg.
as in the only subject i thot i might get E for.
and then now all my hopes are dashed.
like i didnt know how to do so many questions.as in the whole question kinda thingg.
so many questions i didnt even know how to start.
and i counted.
like the BEST i can get is maybe around 35 or somewhere theree.most likely lowerr.
its like jus super sad la.
all the papers were super difficultt.
initially i thot geog would be the toughestt.
and geog was toughh.
but all the papers jus keep getting tougherr.
econs was tougherr.
and math was very tough for me too.
and somehow i jus keep havingg this badd feelingg.
glor was telling me yesterday tt she is afraid she might get retained.
and she was askingg me what i would do if i cant promote.
seriously i had no clue too.
then i was tellingg her.
i keep picturingg two scenarios.
one is me jumpingg and cryingg tears of joy 'cos it would be a great surprise if i can promote.
and the 2nd is.
me cryingg like madd.
but the thingg is.
ive alr decided.
no matter what the outcome is gonna be.
im jus gonna accept whatever comes.
i think GOD knows whats BEST for me.
sigh will jus keep prayingg.
i dont knoww.
but at least i knoww.
though i wasnt exactly super hardworkingg.
super self-disciplined and all.
but at least i tried to change my usual mentality and stuff.
for the past two weeks or so.ive really triedd.
though number of distractions here and theree.
ive tried to revise and stuff.
i dont know why.
it feels like this is the first exam im ever so worried abt.
first exam ive ever tried workingg for.
so at least i know ive triedd.
:)
im jus gonna put this behindd me and enjoyy.
wheeeeeeee!!
not gonna brood on all these worryingg thots anymoreee.
yups.
anw shiyun bought two clips!!
one for me and one for py!!
cos i was tellingg them that day that i think the clips are darnn cute but i dont think ill buy it cos i wont wearr.
ooooohs!! i got the RED one.and py got the black onee.
the RED one has the word "dog" on it and theres like this dog on the clip.
wah quite cutee.
but the BEST part is its RED!!
hahas py's one also has doggies on it!!
wahh thankfuL!!
hahas.
it would be the last paper for my class tmr.
all the BEST everybodyy!!
sometimes i think i still cant handle myselff.
i think im jus weiiiird!!
sigh im gonna keep prayingg for xx and i to be able to promotee togetherr.
im sure there would be a miracle!! :)
this entry might sound a lil sad or sth.
duringg promos i was in that "i cant wait for promos to end" mood.
and i was tellingg py that i would be very exciiited after promos.
yet the papers made me feel like rotten.
ooooohs.
thanks for the msg py!!
im not gonna be sad anymoree!!
anw promos is overr now.
theres nothingg i can do to changee stuff.
yups :)

to all those who are still havingg promos : persevere k!! and dont give up.no matter what the end result is.at least u know uve tried your BEST.u've tried to give up certain thinggs for the exam.hahas opportunity cost!! yups keep prayingg.you'll survive!! :)

wah shant crap furtherr.im off to bedd.
i haven been able to sleep well lately 'cos ive been worried abt promos.
oooohs im jus gonna try goingg to bed earlyy.
since theres nothingg to worry abt anymoree.
hahas i need to stop thinkingg
and tmr would be a brand new dayy.
a day of smiles :)
wheeeeeeeee!!
smilingg jus makes a sad person happierr.
and smilingg makes a happy person happiest!!
yups beingg the happiest is good.
so keep smilingg :)
good nightt world!!