hmms.went for mass jus now after track meetingg with colin.
yupps.have been goingg to this church for quite a long time.
yups and im jus thinkingg of joiningg this class to learn more abt GOD.
yups and im gonna get baptized.
to be a good catholic.
in the past i used to think that catholic believes in mother mary and not in GOD.
but i was wrong.
i guess most ppl have this mis-conception that catholics believe in mother mary.
but thats not true.
yups u have your own beliefs and i have mine.
today i was tellingg gloria that im thinkingg of baptizingg and becomingg a catholic.
she was kinda against it.
we were kinda having some disagreements abt our beliefs.
and i was thinkingg.i used to think like what she's thinkingg now.
guess my life has changed.sometimes things change.
i dont think theres anythingg wrong with beingg a christian.
and i hope that ppl wont find anythingg wrong with beingg a catholic.
'cos we are all believers of GOD.
yups track meetingg today was okay i guess.
my right leg is kinda painfuL noww.injureed.
hmms but i know that.thats not gonna stop me from gettingg what i want.
i have failed to reach what ive set out to do so many times.
ive been disappointed many times.
but now.
im gonna tell myself this.
i know that its all up there in the mind.
miss chan always says that "it depends on who wants it more"
yupps and i know that i want it alot.
i dont wanna look back thinkingg what should have been.
one more thingg.
ive been a slacker for so longg now.
and i want to changee.
not jus for myself.
'cos everythingg i do.i wanna do it to glorify GOD.
i wanna do it for those who care for me.
for my family.my frens and anyone else.
yupps and i know that I DO NOT WISH TO GET RETAINED!!
today somethingg hit me like a slap in my face.
mrs tan my home tutor said : " eileen if u didnt know U ARE IN DIRE STRAITS "
yes i am.only if i continue to be like that.
i gotta change.
yups today im thinkingg alot.
but this time.
im not gettingg myself upset.
this time.i tell myself.
i wanna change.
to those who know me and what ive been through.
im not jus a girl who smiles and talk rubbish all day longg.
i think my past has been quite a mess.
and gloria reminded me that ive been carryingg my past with me.
and its like a burden.
yups i do not wish to carry this burden anymoree.
so i wanna forget my past.
i wanna start over new.
yups but i wont change what i am.'cos im satisfied jus beingg myself.
i really am.
yups to the grp.thanks for everythingg.
thanks for standingg by me duringg tough times.
the song graduation was playingg jus now.
though its an old songg.
yups jus got me thinkingg that seriously i dont ever wanna lose certain ppl in my life.
ill try my BEST to make the frenships last.
to the grp and to my really reallyy greatest frens like glor and susan.sarhjeef.xinwei.jd my favourite junior and to anyone else out theree who is impt to me in some way or other : as we go on.we remember.all the times we spent together.as our lives change.come whatever.we will still be frens forever!!
i think i used to be a person who was very concerned abt how others look at me.
but now i think im not a person like that anymore.
'cos i know.i have frens that will always stand by me and to love me jus for who i am.
jus the way i love them for who they are.
thanks a million.
yupps to those who i haven met up for so longg.
LETS CATCH UP!!
yupps its gonna be jiadi's bday in like abt half hours timee.
wheeeeee!!
hahas :)

JIADI : HAPPY BDAY JIADI!!

XIUS : never ever thought that our frenship would come this far.a kind of frenship that is special knowingg that though we dont talk much.though we dont see each other much.we jus simply know that we would be there to listen.to be there to share our problems.and to be there to go through whatever that is to come.i thank u for those times u stood by me.yups a beegee thank you.u are someone i dont ever wanna lose.'cos i wont be me without u.thanks

BAEYS JOYCE SUSAN AND GLOR : u four are the other ppl i rant to.tell everythingg my heart has gotta say without havingg to hide anythingg.thanks also for listeningg.and have i ever told u all that u all are so impt to me.thanks for everythingg and jus beingg who u are.

to the rest of the grp : to those who i haven seen for a longg longg timee.esp ppl like DEN KHOO AND CAND.imissyou ppl!! yups and to the whole grp.i believe this frenship is here to stay.'cos we've shared so many fun times together.we've shared simply too much.some of the memories started from sec one.some started from sec three.but everythingg will always remain righhtt.and we gotta put in effort to maintain this relationship.yups TRUE FRENS NEVER PART.MAYBE IN DISTANCE BUT NEVER IN HEART!! hurry look for a dayy to meet up!! hahas ILOVEYOU all sooooo muchh!!

XINWEI : it was good seeingg u that day again.though we are in different schs now.i will remember those wonderful times we had.and jus to let u know.im heree.yups thanks for all my dearr fren.

MARNS : yups thanks for beingg a great trainingg partner.ive said this many times.but u have really been one who motivates me.yups and im glad that we are there to motivate each other.dont ever give up.there are times when we feel demoralized.but we know that we can do it rightt.marns it jus depends on the hunger.yups there are abt like slightly less than two months to go.lets give it all we've got.i think our frenship has really grown much.we used to be jus team mates in sec sch.but now u seem to be a fren im able to confide in.to laugh and talk to.yups thanks for beingg special in my life.yups i cherish u.HUGGS :) perseveree!! lets do it TOGETHERR!!

and to U : its true that my life has been a mess.u know what im talkingg abt right.think ive let down certain ppl in my life.yups jus to let u know.that i dont wish to let u down 'cos u are someone impt to me!! i seriously wanna put down my burdened past.'cos i dont want u to carry this burden with me.yupps and jus to let u know this.i want the BEST for U.yups thanks for remindingg me abt what i used to believe in long time ago and i might have forgotten for quite some time.that is to give what ive got without expectingg anythingg in return.ill be here for u.SMILE :)

The Apostles' Creed :
i believe in GOD.the Father almighty, creator of heaven and earth.
i belive in Jesus Christ, his only son, our Lord.
He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit, and born of the Virgin Mary.
He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died and was buried.
He descended to the dead.
On the third day he rose again.
He ascended into heaven, and is seated at the right hand of the Father.
He will come again to judge the living and the dead.
I believe in the Holy Spirit, the holy catholic Church, the communion of saints, the forgiveness of sins, the resurrection of the body, and the life everlasting. AMEN